What was it…not again…I just woke up dragged my mobile alongside my pillow ..it is 4 ‘o clock in the morning …only one hour past while I was successful in achieving some sleep…which was again interrupted with that same sight…the same confusion .why does the same dream keeps bothering me specially for past few days.. as if my subconscious mind is not under peace something is troubling me, some doubts ,some anxieties ,some questions unanswered or is it nothing maybe just my pessimism ..when everything is going alright still so concerned to invite all the self-made troubles ..but maybe also my sixth sense giving intuition this calmness is not ordinary but silence before storm…everything was so dark.. I could hazily see me and so many mixed voices hardly making out what everyone is pointing towards…me murmuring please help me something is holding me back I can’t move something is pressurizing me I need to breathe free .. I want to make all things right…I want to move ahead…I want all good in my life ..and what was that place .. it felt that place had a striking resemblance but though I have never been there ..
I saw everyone close to me very near ones who are supposed to be my dearest…they are just getting detached from me and ultimately me falling free….it was so misleading. .terrible dilemma it put me in…..but what I could only interpret is that maybe I seriously need time …time to discover myself… . I seriously need time to learn what actually do I want. I am not being able to decide or maybe what I am craving for so badly is just not being able to achieve that….ultimately we all are just driven by destiny but sometimes its so hard on us to accept its’ verdict and see the ultimate fate..